You can pretty much just pick any poster in that thread and watch them evolve into a fucking mess while being egged on by 50 other people who are also currently mutilating their body physically and chemically rather than seeking the mental help they obviously need:
1/3/13, first post, expressing interest in becoming a dude:
Hey guys, I have a few questions regarding FTM transition and what it's like specifically for FTM transgender people. If I'm offensive or too personal, I'm sorry, let me know and I'll fix it right away.
1/4/13, tying boobs down with four sports bras:
I'm making due right now by wearing four sports bras on top of each other, but it just makes me look slightly smaller and doesn't make them go away.
1/6/13, looking for a therapist to start on Testosterone:
I'm looking for a therapist right now to help me get on T, but I don't know how soon that's going to be
1/11/13: how do I paint beard?
Is there a good way to fake stubble with makeup? I think my face would look more masculine if I could find a way to fake a beard.
2/3/13: koolaid has been fully consumed:
Transman here, pre-everything.
2/11/13: "avoiding relationships" (the only smart thing she has done this year)
-I'm personally avoiding relationships/intimacy until I'm happy with who I am.
2/24/13: now "pretty much celibate"
I've pretty much decided to be celibate/single
Two hours later, celibacy is a fact:
I figure, no one but me is gonna see it anyway, due to the fact that I'm celibate.
2/24/13: Now a full fledged social justice warrior and expert on trans-speak:
I've noticed that I do have the beginnings of male privilege and it makes me feel a little weird. People don't assume they can touch me, pick me up, or hit on me anymore. People also seem to make more space for me. It feels really weird and almost wrong, in a way- not because it's a bad thing to be treated with respect for my personal space, but because I am and always have been a staunch feminist and experiencing the male privilege first hand is really fucking with my head. It almost makes me angry, especially when I'm out with my female loved ones. When people treat me differently over them, it makes my temper flare and I almost want to be like "hey, fuck you, buddy!"
If Chuck is trans, Chuck will tell you their preferred pronoun.
2/26/13: Wearing a fake dick now:
I could not keep my boobs under wraps at all, I felt gross, my packer kept sliding, and I just could not like myself in the mirror today.
3/7/13: Planning to get genitals mutilated and hopelessly misinformed about the probable results:
Metoidoplasty or however the fuck it's spelled is always an option. From what I understand, it creates a relatively realistic looking, if small, penis. It's also supposed to let you still have orgasm and such. That's what my game plan is, anyway. I'm the only one that's gonna be messing with anything, so it doesn't really matter how big it is. I just wanna stand to pee and get a boner if I want.
3/30/13: Creeping doubts:
Got asked out by this adorable guy tonight. I was in girl mode at the time. It just brought up this whole big surging mass of awful in my guts, though. I keep worrying that I'll never find someone who will accept me for me, especially when I finally reach the end of years of transitioning. I feel that way a lot, lately. I mean, I look in the mirror when I'm in guy mode and I feel really happy, but then when I'm out and about, it's like I'm invisible. When I'm out and about in girl mode, I feel awful but people keep engaging me. Do I have to feel awful to meet people? When I feel awesome, why doesn't anyone make idle chit chat with me? It's only ever when I'm in girl mode.
5/2/13: Complete panic attack mental breakdown:
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellll, that experiment failed. I had a bit of a crisis of faith and was like "maybe I'm not trans and I can be cis haha I will just ignore everything haha" like an idiot, spent about this past month as a lady full time and ended up having a mental breakdown in my college's library when I caught sight of myself in a window. So that was fun.
Yes, I know it was stupid. I just had this massive big panic attack about how I'll never have the body I want and no one will ever love me and blah blah blah- everything everyone else has had thoughts about, I'm sure. I'm just very dumb and not good at handling things like that. Lesson learned, though. I cannot just go back to how it was before.
Obvious advice? Talk to a therapist, right? Nope, just everyone chiming in about how awesome of a man she will become once she buys the right bootleg hormones made from horse piss.
Obviously this is a totally mentally healthy with a normal upbringing, right? Let's have a look:
Insane thoughts of death and dismemberment:
Had a panic attack earlier this morning. :smith:
I've always had them but it was way worse this time. I was in an elevator and started panicking because I had the thought that if the elevator were to drop and smash me to bits and kill me that I'd die without ever being the real me or telling my loved ones who I am. I think I'm going to just take the stairs from now on.
Mother a lifetime abuse victim and man hater:
On a different note, can I get suggestions on how to come out to my family? I'm scared shitless because my mom hates men. She was abused a lot throughout her life and now thinks all men are scum.
Siblings also hate men (obviously due to daddy)
I am very concerned with coming out to my family, though, as they tend to have all or nothing type thinking, and no one in my family is terribly fond of men.
More inherited manhate:
So does she think all men are violent assholes, then?This... this is my mom. I still haven't come out to her for precisely this reason.
Undisclosed life-changing, memory repression inducing family drama:
Then some shit happened with my family, then puberty hit, then I pushed it all to the back of my mind as a phase or just liking to be a tomboy.
Repeats mom's cycle of abuse in her own abusive relationship:
I mostly just have issues due to an abusive ex. He convinced me over several years that my only value as a human being was as a sex object, so having people not hitting on me in boymode fucks with my head something fierce.
Gee, a lifetime of men horribly victimizing the women in your life and suddenly you don't want to be a woman anymore?
Or course the abuse and mental breakdowns are totally unrelated! She was just born in the wrong body!